It has been a week since Javelle has arrived.. Its indeed a joyous occassion for me. I have stepped into the next stage of my life. Learning new things on how to take care of BB Javelle everyday. And oso learning to adapt myself in the new chapter of my life everyday. However i just feel "lost". I dunno why is the feeling coming to me.. Maybe its normal for mothers to experience this at the beginning stage.
Esp when it comes the night time, the feeling of being "lost" becomes stronger. I tell myself that i must not think this way. I need to take care of BB Javelle at night. Im very grateful to my mother in law as she helps me alot in the daytime while i can have a gd rest. So that i have the energy to take care of her at night. I know that all new born babies tend to wake up often and do not want to sleep at night.
I have been telling myself all these are normal and every mothers face that. But i really cant help it to have this "lost" feeling. Maybe during the night is only me handling the baby alone. Trying to coax her to sleep but nothing seems to work. BB Javelle has the habit of waking up as early as 2am to 3 am and only sleeps back at 5am to 6 am. During this period of time i need to accompany her. Shawn will help me to make milk at night and accompany me for a while. But he needs to wake up at 5.30am to work. I cant bear to make him stay up as well. He does not have the chance to rest in the day time like i do.
This is really a tough period.. Its really not easy being a mum.. How true.. how true.. I really hope that BB Javelle will change her sleeping pattern very soon.. But this will take 1 to 2 mths time, or even more. I will perservere till the end.. BB Javelle is a gift given by God. I will treasure her and shower her with all my love. As for now, i need to overcome the "lost" feeling asap, so that i have a better state of mind to take good care of my little princess.
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