Javelle's --- Xi - Nu - Ai - Le Expressions

After drinking milk milk, BB Javelle still dun wan to sleep.. Her eyes still open big big..

So i took some pics of her "pattern liao liao" expressions.. hehe..

"XI"

"NU"

"AI"

"LE"

Soon.. she started to feel sleepy...

Eyes getting smaller...

and smaller........

Finally she dozed off...

**Sweet dreams baby**

Emo Emo... Feeling "Lost"

It has been a week since Javelle has arrived.. Its indeed a joyous occassion for me. I have stepped into the next stage of my life. Learning new things on how to take care of BB Javelle everyday. And oso learning to adapt myself in the new chapter of my life everyday. However i just feel "lost". I dunno why is the feeling coming to me.. Maybe its normal for mothers to experience this at the beginning stage.

Esp when it comes the night time, the feeling of being "lost" becomes stronger. I tell myself that i must not think this way. I need to take care of BB Javelle at night. Im very grateful to my mother in law as she helps me alot in the daytime while i can have a gd rest. So that i have the energy to take care of her at night. I know that all new born babies tend to wake up often and do not want to sleep at night.

I have been telling myself all these are normal and every mothers face that. But i really cant help it to have this "lost" feeling. Maybe during the night is only me handling the baby alone. Trying to coax her to sleep but nothing seems to work. BB Javelle has the habit of waking up as early as 2am to 3 am and only sleeps back at 5am to 6 am. During this period of time i need to accompany her. Shawn will help me to make milk at night and accompany me for a while. But he needs to wake up at 5.30am to work. I cant bear to make him stay up as well. He does not have the chance to rest in the day time like i do.

This is really a tough period.. Its really not easy being a mum.. How true.. how true.. I really hope that BB Javelle will change her sleeping pattern very soon.. But this will take 1 to 2 mths time, or even more. I will perservere till the end.. BB Javelle is a gift given by God. I will treasure her and shower her with all my love. As for now, i need to overcome the "lost" feeling asap, so that i have a better state of mind to take good care of my little princess.

You Will Always Be In Our Memories

Dear See Guan,

A little tribute true and tender,Just to show that we remember. Time may pass and fade away. But memories of you will always stay.

And I wonder where you are, and if the pains ends when you die. And I wonder if there was some better way to say good-bye.

Goodbye My Friend

Do I look like Daddy or Mummy???

Daddy's BB Pics

Mummy's BB Pics

ME!!!

Who do you think i look like??? hehee..

Daddy's Ger

Sitting comfortably in daddy's arm

So comfy that BB Javelle fell asleep...

Baby Javelle is daddy's lucky star.. Daddy dio toto today.. Yippie..

Its her birthdate nos..10 and 26!!!

Everyone, Here I Come!! Im Baby Javelle...

Date: 25/10/07

Time: 1430

Time: 1530

Time: 1630

Time: 1800

***** Mummy is in big pain in the meantime.. Unable to take pics at ALL!!*****

Date: 26/10/07

Time: 0100

Time: 0200

And after 12 hours of labour, @ 0233...

I have arrived!!!!!

My First Family Pic.. That can only see my eyes..

That's Better..

Enough!!! I want to sleep already...

Date: 26/10/07

Time: 0830
Im still sleepy.. Dun force me to take pics...

The one who kept talking with me at night when im in mummy's tummy..
I can recognize his voice..

Date: 27/10/07

Im HOME!!! Hurray!!!

Date: 28/10/07

My Da Tou Tie.. 8 Lian Pie!!! Hehe..

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Take 8.. Getting tired..Thats all for the day pls..Hi Everyone.. Im Javelle Toh.. I'll be back soon!!!

Week 39 - The Waiting Game

It seems like forever for me to cuddle BB Javelle in my arms.. Have been waiting but the day is not here yet. BB Javelle seems to be very comfy and happy staying in my tummy. While im suffering from the heavy weight and dragging myself everywhere i go.

However, spotting is found on Monday evening (22/10/07). Thinking that i might see my little princess on Shawn's BD, which is on 23rd. However there is no signs of contractions at all.

This morning, i found that the spotting is getting heavier and called my gynae. He told me that it's most likely to be just a sign that the cervix is beginning to soften, maybe even dilate and i was asked to do a chk at the hospital. I was worried and happy at the same time. Worried is that im having the discharge but there is no contractions. I really dun wish to end up having caesarean like one of my fren's sis who experienced that. And im happy thinking that i might be seeing BB Javelle any time soon today.

When i reached the hospital, my gynae was there too. Hence he did a chk for me. To my disappointment, he told me that im only dilated btw 0.5cm to 1cm only. And since my water bag has not break, i should go hm and monitor the situation again as it will be a waste of time to wait in the hospital.

Shawn is disappointed too as he is looking forward to meet BB Javelle. He rushed hm from work this morning thinking that this is the big day. He was so anxious that he tore the wrong date on his weekend car coupon (wasted $20). He has been so excited these few days. He would always walk into BB's room, opening the wardrobe to look at the BB's clothings. He told me how he wants to decorate BB's room, the colour that he wants to paint himself. And he talks to BB every night, asking when will she be arriving, telling BB how much he wants to play with her. And he will smile to himself when talking to BB, esp when he saw her reactions from my tummy. I can see the fatherly love from his eyes even thou he has not met his little princess yet.

I will be going back to my gynae's clinic to do a chk again tomorrow morning. If there is still no news within these few days, i will be undergoing induce labour on 31/10/07 (the actual due date). Hopefully things will turn out well.